Even though i shouldnt…
I still get that, “weird” feeling when something is happening that im either jelous of, or i dont like. Its probably very childish of me, but i dunno, theres just something that makes me wish things were different, that i was different and that i wonder what i could of done to change it! Dont get me wrong, i like being happy for people and im all for it, but when you put so much effort into something and get hardly anything in return or an outcome you didnt want, then it makes you wonder was it all in vain or should you just ride with it and relish the fact that even if it was for a brief amount if time, you still made an impact on someone’s life and got to see them happy. Surely that should
Make me feel better about myself, because there is nothing more i like doing than being able to help people out or do stuff in order to see them happy! Ok. Hmmm i wonder?
